Maybe being powerful means to be fragile ~ Ai WeiWei
Change is good, or so I’ve been told. Seems like all the major changes in my life have been nothing but moving from one drama filed situation to the next. Yet I still believe in that saying. I believe that change can be a good thing. Everyone and everything is constantly changing….except for me. I still feel like I’m trapped in the same old box with the same old bullshit with the same old crappy attitude towards life.
I need to reinvent myself. I need to make some major changes in my life. I’m a nineteen year old female college student with too much drama and not enough time to deal with it. It’s time to start cutting people out of my life and putting my foot down when it comes to dealing with bullshit. I need to free myself from all the fear and limitations I put on myself as well as the unreasonable expectations from others placed upon me.
I’ve noticed that I’m one of those people who use their past failures and the negativity from others as a reason to not reach my goals or to even try for that matter. If I don’t have someone constantly pushing me or supporting me then I won’t succeed. If I don’t have a crutch then I don’t do it. I can’t do that anymore. Theirs not always gonna be somebody there to stay on top of me about what I need to do for me. I’m not always gonna have someone in my corner. If I don’t believe in myself then I’ll never get anywhere in life. This is definitely gonna be easier said than done but the first step is to say it.
There’s no going back now……